The beginning is always the hardest

So, my journey began in October 2016, I decided enough was enough and it was time for me to make some serious changes.

I then asked myself how am I going to do this? What am I going to do differently than all the previous failed attempts? How am I going to keep motivated and make sure I don’t fall off track and end up back into old habits? As excited as I was to start this journey I feared that I would let myself down again.

But I knew this time was going to be different. It had to be if I wanted to become the best version of me. I said to myself his time it’s actually going to happen. I believed in myself and that was it. Your body will achieve what your mind believes.

Now when you and most of the people in this world who are struggling with weight loss automatically think diet. And to most of us that word just makes us cringe. I mean who wants to go on a diet? I certainly did not. Every diet I have ever been on didn’t last long as I was told what to eat rather than what not to eat.

No one likes being told what to do especially me.

The first step was to get rid of all my excuses, start exercising on a daily basis, park my car away from the main entrance of places e.g. shopping centres and just start moving my arse.

I needed to cut out all the rubbish foods I had been eating that caused all this weight gain to start with. So that’s exactly what I did I started with cutting out fast food, fried foods, pastries, and sugar like sweets and chocolate. And replaced these foods with real nourishing foods that came from natural sources with minimal preservatives if any. I cut out soft drinks, cordial and alcohol and replaced it with water, herbal teas and fresh pressed juices.

As expected it was not easy. I felt tired, I felt sick and I wasn’t seeing any immediate changes. There were days where I wanted to quit and there nights where I wanted to binge. but I had to constantly remind myself why I started and what my goals are. If I want to lose weight, look better and fit into nice clothes I’m going to have to work really hard, stay focused, disciplined and avoid any temptations that would sabotage my goals.

The beginning is always the hardest where you will have withdrawal symptoms from all the junk you have been putting in your body for years but once you push through that stage you start to feel amazing and then a new addiction begins.

You just need to be patient take it day by day week by week month by month and then all the hard work finally starts to pay off.  Be consistent, be determined and stay focused on your goals. When you start seeing results I promise that you will thank yourself.

 

Enough is Enough

If YOU are not happy with your appearance, your weight, hate the way you look and constantly put yourself down then its time to make a change NOW.

I used to hate myself so much it got to a point where I would avoid going out with my friends because I was feeling too fat, couldn’t fit into anything, I knew id be the biggest girl there and I just felt like shit. So I would end up staying at home in my stretchy pyjama pants and eat my emotions away with as many calories (mainly carbs sugar and really bad fats) as my stomach could handle pretty much until I felt sick.

This made me so upset because I wanted to go out I wanted to wear that dress ive been waiting to wear for years but no I decided to live this depressing lifestyle instead.

The only solution to the problem is to make a change.

I was so unhappy with myself I hated the way my body looked so much. I was at a size that was too big for most stores but too small for the plus size stores.

I couldn’t fit into any clothes, like seriously it was so hard. I would go shopping and buy the largest size in the store which was a large or XL in most stores hoping that it would fit otherwise it just got thrown into the back of the cupboard for when I’m “smaller one day”. I hated trying things on because 90% of the time I already knew id be wasting my time.

On top of already emotionally abusing myself because of my size. People that I knew or just met would often make comments about my weight and constant reminders of how big I was (like I didn’t know already) and random people would just treat me different.

It hurt a lot. I hated looking at myself in the mirror I would often emotionally abuse myself about how I looked. I didn’t want to be this unhappy, lazy, overweight, negative minded, depressing, full of excuses unhealthy person anymore!

I wanted to change to better my health and to fit into clothes that I haven’t been able to fit into. I wanted to lose weight for me and nobody else because my life is mine and this is my body and Im the only who is stuck with it for the rest of my life.

So why not make it amazing. When you believe you can you will!

I went overseas last year for the first time. I Loved the experience but hated the way I looked. When I got back home a month later I was at my heaviest which was over 100kg. I thought wow wtf are you doing leesa?

This was not healthy! Enough was Enough! And it all started from there.

That was it for me I had to do something about this before it completely got out of hand.

It was time for a challenge, it was time to stop these bad habits that were making me miserable, It was time to prove to myself that I’m better than this and If I’m willing to work hard for it I WILL accomplish my goals. I wanted to change my life for me and only I had the power to do so.

I became so motivated there was no turning back.

 

No more excuses

A little about me, hello I’m Leesa from Melbourne Australia. I used to be a very negative person and the queen of excuses.

After years of being so unhappy with myself  I woke up one day and realised that some things cannot and will not change unless YOU do something about it. Only YOU hold the power to change YOU.

I said this to myself over and over again and my mindset began to change. Good things happen to those who get up and work towards their goals and dreams not those who sit there and wait for a miracle to happen.

Everybody knows the saying “Good things happen to those who wait” I used to think if I just waited a miracle might just happen. So, I waited and waited and nothing happened. I was not happy with myself I had gained even more weight and 5 years later I asked myself what am I actually waiting for?

I thought that people with amazing bodies have really good genes and were pretty much born like that (funny I know). That made me sad, jealous and depressed. This led to emotional eating. I was very depressed I sat on my arse telling myself how fat I was which made me so miserable I would end up eating anything I could get my hands on. Whenever I felt emotional whether it to do with my weight or something else in life eating made me “feel better”. My mind was focusing on how good whatever I was eating tasted at the time but that only lasted so long. As soon as I would finish eating I felt like crap and was even more depressed than before so I would eat again. I would binge eat right before bed and sometimes in bed and then wonder why i felt sick in the morning.  I was a big “secret eater” where I would sneakily eat something when someone wasn’t looking or while driving I would stop and eat a burger, kebab, or a feast if It was available. This being right after I’ve already eaten dinner. I would keep a secret stash of chips and chocolate lollies etc in a secret spot.

One day i woke up to myself and realised that the only one responsible for the way I feel, the way I look, the lifestyle I live is me. Nobody else. So, I decided to try and do something.

So, I needed to lose weight and fast but how? So of course, I went to the chemist, health food stores, websites and other weight loss scams. I tried gyms, personal trainers going for walks etc. Over a couple of years i had tried pretty much everything on the market claiming to be a fast way to lose weight but nothing worked. So of course, I gave up and went back to old habits. If anything, I may have lost a few kgs but gained double back shortly after. I failed.

In 2016, I decided to change my life. I decided enough is enough I’m sick of the way I look and feel, I’m sick of being fat I’m sick of being lazy I’m sick of talking about it and most of all I was sick of making excuses. I was just depressing myself and the people around me even more. I’m the only one with the power to change that. I wanted to be smaller healthier and stronger so bad I had to do something about it. I became determined to lose weight and keep it off forever this time.

Good things happen to those who get up and work for it. So, what are you waiting for?